its been so long.

hi all. its been a month since i posted.
man its been a weird month of good and bad.

somtimes i wonder if i can ever keep it a secret any more..
i dont want to lose you as a friend..

recently i've been catching up with someone and she seemed quite alright. but i think what i did recently have already ended our relationship as friends.

i hate raging hormones.
Sin ravishes.
Christians suffer.




will i backslide. like 6 years ago? when i started the path of no return? well.. not say no return la.
but the lost of innocence. this time would be the downfall of me.
im kinda confused with everything thats happening and every thing screwing up.
well not everything is screwed up but almost everything.
and guess what? i dont know if i can take it anymore

the lost of a friend.
backsliding.

so many others things that i dont even know how to label it..
argh.



damn it.
i really wished the sermon last week would help me now.
just who the hell am i?
what am i?
whats my identity........






im falling..