im POOPED out tired.
*listening to jars of clay one and only "i want to fall in love with you"*

Wondering about my spiritual gifts now and how am I gonna like cultivate it.
being single now gt so much time. not much people to chat with. no one to account to.
just plain ol me. the solemn one. quiet and introverted? haha.

sometimes i wonder how long before you'll treat me as a good friend again.

im proud of myself. in 2 months my bill is less than $100. haha. the past month was only $37.
but my spending on food has increased tremendously.
looks like i found more love in food than relationships.
their like so much simpler to enjoy. nt much thinking. love it? get it and eat it.
haha. but it has its price too $$$.

was on the bus back with wilson. talking about inflation. haha.
wonder if any one can explain to me why is there inflation. though i roughly know why there is i want to know the full story.


*still listening to the same song*



yawns. lets blog about my weekend.
fri i ended sch went to work early. huda was on mc so i started at around 3. ended work at 2am.
went home.
next day was hari raya. woke up like 10 in the morning to call jesmond aka jessie.
met him for breakfast cum lunch. ate BK.
had a kids meal plus a dble mushroom swiss. gt the scooby doo toy! haha. man do i miss scooby doo. got two of the toys now. so went to work at 12pm. huihui ask me come early do paper work. in the end she late. tsk tsk tsk.
so i so called started work at 1. finished at 2am again.
next day i had to work opening because emylia couldnt make it for work. so i tot alright i'll take her shift since im starting at 12 anyway. so worked 9-6. but had to extend cause watee didnt come to work. so in the end me xue ying and hui hui extend till 10. so i practically worked opening to closing. that xue ying also crazy like me.
gt attachment still work on fri till closing. then sat closing. sunday morning till closing. haha.
she consider it as 8 days of work. i still consider it as 7. haha.
anyways. thats about all for my weekend.
nothing much.
i feel like i've strayed from my quiet time these few days.
i've only been praying morning and night.


anyways. Jessie. join my cell on tuesdays lei. since u no sch.

heroes is almost done d/l so i shall sign off here.
nights everyone.





zach.

13th oct

Copied this from Raina's blog.
cause i was darn bored.
so this is non official meaning of my name.

BE WARNED! I HAVE A VERY LONG NAME



Z: Lives life for fun
A: Fun to be around with
C: Really fall in love with
H: Easy to fall in love with
A: Fun to be around with
R: Can kick your ass
Y: Loved by everybody

M: Make people laugh
A: Fun to be around with
R: Can kick your ass
K: Really silly

W: Very broad minded
O: EXTREMELY easy to fall in love with
N: Good bf/gf
G: Dont like people to tell you what to do

N: Good bf/gf
G: Dont like people to tell you what to do
A: Fun to be around with
I: Love to laugh

M: Make people laugh
U: Gets blamed for everything
N: Good bf/gf
N: Good bf/gf

W: Very broad minded
A: Fun to be around with
N: Good bf/gf
G: Dont like people to tell you what to do

Y: Loved by everybody
I: Love to laugh


W: Very broad minded
E: Have beautiful eyes
N: Good bf/gf

only thing i would actually agree with this is a few alphabets which are : Z,G,I,K.




A: Fun to be around with
B: Loves to make people laugh
C: Really fall in love with
D: Is a great dancer
E: Have beautiful eyes
F: People get wild and crazy to adore you
G: Dont like people to tell you what to do
H: Easy to fall in love with
I: Love to laugh
J: Easy to have fun with
K: Really silly
L: One of the most romantic people
M: Make people laugh
N: Good bf/gf
O: EXTREMELY easy to fall in love with
P: Popular with all types of people
Q: A hypocrite
R: Can kick your ass
S: Lives life for fun
T: Great Kisser
U: Gets blamed for everything
V: Not judgmental
W: Very broad minded
X: Drop dead gorgeous
Y: Loved by everybody
Z: Lives life for fun

Moving House

ok. im gonna move house soon.
man the end of the year is gonna be b-b-b-busy!




zach.

All The Worlds By Kutless

How do I speak of the indescribable to you
I will try to explain these feelings that are true
so look in to the sky I will sing
and from my heart to you I bring

All of the words and all of my life
that could never explain and never describe
All of my love which is nothing to hide
so I lift up my hands and I worship
I worship you

In your presence I forever choose to live
I will praise you for its all I have to give
so look in to the sky I will sing
and from my heart to you I bring

All of the words and all of my life
that could never explain and never describe
All of my love which is nothing to hide
so I lift up my hands and I worship

By your grace you let me come and talk to you
Its not that I'm worthy I thank you Jesus
for the love that you have shown

All of the words and all of my life
that could never explain and never describe
All of my love which is nothing to hide
so I lift up my hands and I worship

With all of the words and all of my life
that could never explain and never describe
All of my love which is nothing to hide
so I lift up my hands and I worship
I worship you






Indeed i do worship you Oh Lord.
Thank you for guiding me all my life.
Please forgive me for all the things that i've done wrong.
All of these words i say to you,
Amen.




zach.3:53am 7th Oct 2007
anotherdaycloser.

What I found.

I found peace and serenity..
in SLEEP!
well after all my "mixed vegetables" ranting ( as described by Bird)
i guess all i needed was just SLEEP(and prayer).
feeling so much better now.

Thank God!

that simple thought.

today's been a so so day for me.
sch's fine.
work was not as good.
movie was alright...

but somehow i dont feel right..


time to sleep.
before i get insomnia by thinking too much again.


anotherdaypassesbywithoutaminuteofnotthinkingofanything.
man. what am i saying.











zach.
God, I still do Love you =D.
and i shall praise u every single day no matter how sucky it is.
cause being able to live the next day is already what i love most.

Cursing and swearing

hmm. why do people love to curse and swear?
thats one question i've yet to answer to.

3rd oct part 2.

hmm.. i think its time i stop denying myself and start learning a musical instrument.
what should i start with.. hmm should i pick up what my dad has spent so many years practising?


thinking.

3rd Oct.

hey peeps.
im so bored.
aint gt mood to study.
so here i am blogging.

yawns.
tomorrow is a full day of sch. 8-5. man aint it gonna be tiring.
my mind feels as if its gonna blow.
for no reason.
maybe cause of the boredness.
it cant seem to operate properly.
i dont have a temperature so it should be alright.
i feel so drained.
though i dont do anything much.

rawr.Rawr. RAWR.

i feel like singing. but i know its kinda awful.
so i will be nice and not sing.
i cant seem to think of anyone to chat with on msn.
i feel like im part of the ASS ( Anti Social Society ).

or maybe cause im being emo.
oh no. thats real bad.
hmm.. that could explain my love for the colour black. LOL.
not that i really LOVE that colour. but just been buying black stuff.
2 black Raulph Lauren Polo Ts, A black psp, black pencil box, wearing all black.
hmm.. BLACK.
i need bright colours! but i dont like too bright colours. haha.
im feeling lonely again..
HH is sleeping
winston is busy playing games.
Raina is working.
No one for cell is online except jowell but he's busy.
No one from NCC seems to want to talk.
SP people are kinda being arrogant so i dont wanna talk to them atm.
Cousins are busy.
played my psp till i reach my limit.
played warcraft too.

BORING!


ok. i think i can confirm im really feeling emo now.
i wish my siblings were in SG or i was in HK..
at least i've gt someone to talk to.


ARGH! whats up with me.. *Falls back on my bed and lay there for a while*
this is one reason i love to work.
at least im doing something. and not just wasting my bloody time.
bloody hell..
hm.. i've resulted to cursing. something is really bothering me..
BUT WHAT!
i feel so disorganised..
i dont even know what i want to do anymore.. for today.

God pls tell me whats bugging me inside.
my facade will soon fade..
*pouts and snorts*
oink.




WHY AM I FEELING SO BLOODY DEPRESSED!




d-.-b d-.-b d-.-b d-.-b d-.-b

Just a simple wish.

Hope i didnt screw up.

Just Another day.

well what do ya know.
here i am again bloggin.
hmm. havet i been blogging a lot lately?


hmm. today was an alright day. was looking forward for cell but unfortunately it got cancelled.
well its alright. Prayer is every day.


Been thinking of my migration for the pass few days.
im really wondering how it would be like to leave Singapore.
Well, leaving HK was not a prob for me because i left there before i could even remember anything.
Now, its almost a whole new diff story,
i've gt friends, friends who really cared about me and whom i really do care for..



leaving the life here would be my next big obstacle.
but God only tests people if they're really ready for it.
so when the time comes, im assuming i m.

To The Cow

Dear Winnie Aka Moo,

this post is to apologize for me leaving you in such an abrupt manner.
the times we shared were great and i definitly would not regret it.
I've never really given you a proper reason for why i broke up with you.
and now i'm going to spill the beans openly to our cell peeps.

during the 2 weeks that we didnt really talk after you came back from Aussie,
i felt kinda pressured by you as I know the one week was a long and torturing separation and you really really missed me a lot. Though i had nothing much to say to you when you came back does not mean i did not have a feelings for you at all.

Though after a while you realised that you were a bit demanding and apologized i thought that that would be the end of it already but after cell, the one where Glenn was telling us to face our problems and stuff, you asked me a simple question and i didnt answer. how you reacted really made me think whether trully if you had actually really solved the earlier problem.

After that day, 2 pain stakening weeks passed and we didnt talk much. you asked me what was wrong. and that was what made me real mad. and that was when after being confront by 3 random people that i finally know that though i wanted to stay it was not meant to be any more.

I felt kinda sad too but i had to keep my front cause i know to let go of someone u cherish most is also called love. i didnt want to hurt you any longer cause i know i would not be able to share with you stuff that we used to share so openly anymore. I just couldnt take it anymore. As hard as i tried to forgive you each time you made me angry i just couldnt take it.

Its good that you knew that you should have treasured me a lil bit more when we were together ( not that im being sarcastic here). but at least now you know that even if you are still waiting for me now or that you would find another guy. you would treasure him.

Sorry if its getting kinda confusing but these pass few nights after last weeks cell has been much difficult for me to sleep cause i knew i had to tell you all of this. Im sorry that i couldnt tell you this face to face. Im a coward and would never want to see a girl cry because of me.
but in the end i still made u cry twice.

After all that happened, I would like for you too forgive me just as how God forgave me for the things i did to you.

I do hope that you would read this post because its specially written from you from my heart.





yours sincerely,

Mark.

P.S. In the Seasons of Change, God will see you through.
Getting slain and having the leapt of faith to finally talk to me is a big improvement.
You're a strong petit girl and you are bound to make great changes to the people around you.
but sometimes you've got to trust youself and let go of the little problems around you.
Faith is what i lived on through my years and i do hope you, too, would have build your Faith and carry on leading a happy life.

Happy Childrens Day

Hello everyone.
as u can see by my nick. ITS CHILDRENS DAY!
was being bullied in class as i was the youngest.
Sometiems i wish i wasnt really treated like a kid,
sure i may play weird games like digimon and make silly jokes but hey thats called being young at heart. Its my interest.anyways the matters passed and i dont really care.

havent gt enough sleep since last night. couldnt really sleep at all..
After saying goodnight to Raina on msn i went to lie on my bed trying to fall asleep till like 3+ after which i couldnt take it anymore and got up from my bed and headed to my lappy to play WC3 till like 5+ this morning. After that i got ready for lessons.

Didnt feel that tired the whole day but just kept yawning a lot.
After sch went to TC for box staff meeting.Dropped by KFC at PS to buy food for Raina first. Bumped in to DC who was on attachment at the charles and keith there. He was suppose to call me after work but he didnt.
Had a great and enjoyable meeting. Only thing was trying to comfort xue ying cause she saw her ex and he like didnt really want to acknowledge her at all which is kinda sad. throughout the whole meeting tried to comfort her succeeded a lil bit. At least she laughed when Andrew made jokes. haha.
After that went with Raina Xue ying Francis and Jesmond to eat BnJ at lvl 2. Saw Julian there and he gave us discount on the ice cream! haha. yummy.

Had a nice chat on the cab back.
dropped raina off first and then jesmond.


im feeling pooped all of a sudden.
think i'll sleep comfortably tonight.
All i want to say today is to Thank God cause i think i had a great time.



Zach
sometimes i wish i could express to you how i feel. Smilez =D
sometimes i wonder how much i would like to thank you for the times you've shared with me.
sometimes i want to just hold your hand or just cuddle but i think its inappropriate. haha.
somtimes is just a word to describe my thoughts .
Somtimes.



hmm dwight. i think what you said is right. i need someone to account to and be accounted for.
i've lead a lonely life and maybe thats why im yearning for so much more nowadays.